you don't like me, i knew it.

Oh, i screenshot it from my facebook account in my profile. Hahah -.-
See, i told you there's plenty of them(Plus i did not wrote down all the details of homeworks that has to be done)

Oh Hi Love.

Holidays are in for a treat, loves! I bet all or probably most are already planning for their upcoming outings or whatever you may call that. So anyway, im pretty packed and busy these holidays and can you believe it?

I have to come back to school on one of the days just because of the dental appointment. Oh, what the hell. Its not even going to take 30 minutes or so, so why not do it in term 3?

Oooh. For over the past 6 months, i have gained 1 kg and grew taller(too) How awesome is that?

hahah, i have always wanted to be an inch tall. Yayy, i think so itss sensible for me to only have gained a kg, atleast i did not gained too much like how i always been thinking i did. I think it sounds very manageable.

Okay, R-ohani finally did the 50 questions i asked her to. (hello, its 50 questions. how in the world did she managed it?) I think if i were her, i would be half-dead. Or to be more precise, my brain. Most likely, i will be too stress and will have the urge to eat the pain away(and gained weight -.- ). Or put myself to sleep. Or most likely, i will think of happy thoughts, i always think of happy thoughts don't you know that? hahahahahahahhhaahahahahahahahahahahaha, F-aizah did it too! but she stopped at 23. I won't let you strangle me for not finishing the other sentences, (50 minus away 23, how much is that?- i told you im a sucker for math). And she dreamt of something horrible, its totally ridiculous- she hardly ever believe it so how am i supposed to? haha, well, atleast i dreamt of a beautiful dream that somewhat made me fell in love with someone i know im not supposed to be falling in love with and i tried so hard to refuse to believe to what my heart says. Ermm..if you're wondering why, let me tell you why. I can't be falling in love with him because he is my friend's boyfriend. there, i have said it. Now you know why im avoiding the real deal here. I seriously have to get the idea of us together out of my mind. So help me before i get used to him.

Im currently busy with my holiday assignment(ooh, believe me there's plenty of them). Im just going to put aside all my other assignments until the last week of June(haha, i can promise you i won't be able to finish all of them) So, For now, i will only bother to complete CS 4 assignments 'cause i have to hand it in by the following monday when we're out as a half-class(since our CS class are divided) for a fun-fill yet so called educational day(: Ga, i can't wait! With one of the most funniest teacher and cool/hilarious classmates and not forgetting KH who always are made the laughing stock, i presumed its going to be a blast! Haha, yayy!

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Feelings for today;

When life starts to turn bad and make you felt as though you're useless and not anymore needed within your circle of friends, show life that you too, can survive the reality and face the world.

You don't need anyone to tell you how great you are, you know you are. And when your instinct tells you some people just don't like you and all this while they are pretending, well you just have to show that person the real you. Or let fate decides.

Okay, well. Im going to miss you this holidays. Its a month, I won't get to see you so much often when we were schooling. But whatever, i must not let fairytales get the best of me. So what if your girlfriend and you are not speaking, the truth will always be there to remind me that i must not let myself fall so deep and ending up hurting myself. I saw you walking towards me in my dream, but in the real world you're walking away from me. Everytime i dreamt of you, i have always wanted to keep sleeping so as to keep you with me.

Omg, im making it sound as though im in a dilemma. It sounds so emotionally true that leaves me to wonder as to why out of all people i knew, it was you. I wonder what does it mean though.

-Erdina