you've forgotten the feeling when you were missing me.

How do you feel when you misses someone? Someone whom you have once had a close relations with. And know that someone already found your replacement. Someone whom you called your sister. Someone who's there with you all of the way. Someone who had forgotten their past promises? So then i guess its true, "Promises are meant to be broken". Most importantly, when the phone rings, you know its them.

Oh Hi Love.

Okay, brace yourself cause im going to start bragging about my grades. Haha, no im just kidding. I am rather not that person who would brag about their grades over and over again. No, im not. Let me tell you once. or maybe twice. or thrice. Let us see.

So i felt so free after exams are over. I felt as though im like a bird who finally was not caged anymore. Finally the stress and all the pressure will not be so much everyday. Finally you can heave a sigh of relief. Finally you could catch up on your favourite tv shows/dramas. Finally you could hang on the phone all day without feeling guilty. Finally you could push away your notes and books. Thats what i most felt after exams are over. I felt as though my head was exploding when i was memorising the T.List. I felt the pressure all over me and then i thought, "I swear im gonna fail"

and guess what? im going to flunk CS paper anyway. (I even mixed up RAM and ROM-which is the easiest*roll eyes*.)

History section A was a disaster. Section B made it all looks better on RC(:

English summary was quite well done. Comprehension, i don't even want to remember it.

Okay, thats the bad news. Its time for the good.

I improved on my own language(:

Here comes the bragging part. The smartest thing to do now is to prepare for the unexpected.

im not going to beat around the bush no more, im not letting you guess because by the time, i would have been exhausted waiting.

Okay, here we go. i pass physics. i pass my maths. How is that great for you?

Well, it doesn't really do you any good but who cares? As far as im concerned, It is for me. Haha.

Im actually doing myself a favour by having the mindset that I did pass physics but in my own way.

Because im used to get single digit and i was kind of expecting to get atleast 9(?) but i scored 31.5

Okay, seriously even if its over 80? Atleast from an ugly F, i moved up to a pretty nice E.

There's always room for improvement. and now im determined to get a C. and i'll be content.

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Initially, I was planning to have a short post. Hahah, i know it won't be. I was over the moon when i received the paper. I kept on bragging about it with my lover. haha, i guess she was kind of irritated but it doens't look like it so i assumed she wants to hear more of it(more like its the other way round). So what if i was leaning my back against wei chong's? It does not mean im attracted to him, okay?

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Im starting to miss the Boys now. haha, its been long since i ever saw you. Im waiting for all the four volumes to be out and i assure you I would be among the first to get it(: And congrats on your modelling career. You deserve the best. and maybe i deserve some truth too. Maybe i should not have admitted it.

oh, you're making life seems horrible to me. I hope you would just vanish and i'll thank you for granting my wish, dear. You are being so judgemental about others whereas in reality, you are perhaps worst? I don't know but you made it look bad. Why do you want to brag about it? Why are you so ignorant? Why do you want me to go away? Ermm..lest you have forgotten, i am your friend. Or maybe i was.

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R has always been a pessimist person. I don't know what driven her to have such thoughts over and over again even after many people had told her, "YES". I told you a hundreds of times before, probably millions, it is not the end of the world yet. There is always the next day. There will always be hope but that really depends on you. Your mindset to be exact. Why do you always thought it that way when there's a thousand reasons to make yourself happy? Why are you making it sound so-never-gonna-happen? You do not know, but i can. I can predict your life. haha, in this case i could foretell. Somewhat it will. Everyone undergo extreme sadness but Try to be more of 'me'. You know Im always thinking of happy thoughts. No matter how sad/frustrated/depressed/pissed/angry or whatever that is bad that you can think of(but im hardly pissed or angry) I am, i never let it control my mind. I never let it changed me into someone who is pessimist. I am always an Optimist person but too much optimism can hurt.

I won't let words bring me down. but by thinking of the possible things that may happen eventually will make you smile everytime _ came across your mind. So push away your negative thoughts and replace them with positive.

(i told you once, im going to tell you twice. I PASS PHYSICS in my own way. okay thrice. I PASS PHYSICS! im not proud, im content. Im not showing-off, im informing you-okay, honestly whats there to show off to you? Its not even a pass.)

Love,

Erdina.