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"i want to be heard. i want to be known. i want to see beyond my own little world."
hey hi *grinning*
i changed my blogskin to one which has more colours on it.
haha, i used to only liked the plain ones. the one with less colours and dull pictures. its different now.
anyway, to Diana-finally after so long, you created one for yourself. haha, now all the three of us own one. and uh, must remember to update on regular basis, ^^.
and people, go link her! haha, okay. lets talk about something else now.
lets see, yesterday was supposed to go out and have fun with Rohani and Diana BFF.
but did not since each of us had plans(last minute).

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happy birthday kak ada<33 last long with your bestest boyfriend! haha, seriously, he's the best that i have ever known.
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im planning on studying atleast 2 hours of *insert subject* but didn't since im easily distracted (and btw, there's a lot of temptations in my world. haha, temptations yeah right.)
i was watching television the whole time and every time im in my room, i will tend to walk around and to the kitchen to find some food and eventually i will sit on the couch and watch tv, simply forgetting all my plans. since friday the first, i planned on completing my homework but i didn't(no surprise) cause i was watching tv the whole time. i hate it when there's always something good on tv. i can spend all my time rotting in front of the tv all the long, hha really i can. im a tv junkie, sort of.
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anyway, i was looking back at my lower sec's work when i came across this profiling thing. it has been proven that im easily influence by others. when i get closer to someone, i will tend to fear of losing that person and i will go to great lengths just to keep it just the way it is. hahah, im not self-centred and im definitely not an egocentric person. haha, i think they got the same meaning (go look up). there's alot of things about me that you can never figure it out. haha, maybe some but not all.
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im obviously happy(and i can thank myself) with all the things in my world. i want no change to it cause it'll be hard for me to adapt later on. i think im almost there. perhaps it will only take a few more steps. or more. lets watch boys and girls. -.-, maybe if its up to you, i'll be in my bed wiping the tears now. maybe i should thank those people for knocking some sense into me. for waking me up from this horrifying nightmare. i felt this huge feeling of regret all over me when i received constant reminder from others about what i did. and now that its going to be over, im glad. im glad it'll soon be over. when i looked back, i think i lied to myself. maybe from the start, it does not even exist. something made me thought it did, but it didn't. it never did.
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anyway, enough about those things. its going to be over soooooooon, pretty soooooooon(:
weeeeeeeeeee` yayyy *claps*-*jumping up and down*-*grinning*
okay so since there's nothing left, i feel like talking about some people. haha. lets!
first thing, BFFs are the most important as compared to others. they are as important as air to me. i need them to live. when they're gone, i will feel this emptiness that probably will never be the same if its replaced. i swear i love them a million times more and double the digit and multipy it by infinity. do you know how much it is? Best Friends Forever!
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if you notice Fatin, she bought and wore her new pair of shoes and it looked cute on her. hahah, and she looks better with her specs on and scorpian-ed her black hair. she got her bestest twin now,
anyway, her twin is her twin. shall not talk about her twin.
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these days Faizah was constantly bullied by them. haha, funny how then she'll react slowly and she's damn blur i tell you. ahah, ani is practically crazy about maths. she's been doing maths every mintue in class and whenever i turned to her she will be like stressing herself doing maths but claimed that she's loving it. haah, then i will be like "can you stop doing maths!" haha, and i'll keep on distracting her, i will talk continuously until it gets to her. haha, fun! i love her(: and i pity Mr.yeo cause he have to keep on reminding us to do our corrections cause we didn't even though it is due like 3 weeks ago. but yeah, whether or not i did physics all by myself i will still have lots of correction and i have to buck up now cause im not spending the rest of my life writing with green pen when it comes to physics and math.
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Nabiha-ha-ha is the best girlfriend! haha, she's funny. she's funny when she's mad about something or someone. she will start spitting out nonsense and some of the things she said didn't even made any sense but still its funny. haha, terenjit is the other funny one. he can make me laugh even about the silliest stuff. he is forever my 'entertainer'. haha, he's capable of doing anything stupid. and i love being around him(:
plus, he's able to keep my secret unknown still.
okay seriously, im exhausted.
i want to go have my beauty sleep(Ha.Ha.Ha) and as im typing, im already yawning.

with love,

Erdina.