Tell me im not forgotten, that im still your best.

Kay, exams are going well with the exception of Chemistry Paper 3. I think i did relatively well for all papers. I regretted not studying about moles and such. i regretted not studying for physical properties of acids. i regretted that i stopped mugging only before moles. i should have continued but i was already in the comfort of my bed place which brought me to deep sleep.

Well anyway. If only i did study about those that i didn't, then maybe i could have seen hope in passing. But then again, no point dwelling on it. i was comforted by the fact that im not the only one. *grins*

Well, im really glad i was able to do math. Although when i checked against the formula book, i used the wrong formula in the first question, it didn't bother me. at all because if i were to compare it with the night before, i couldn't even do any of the question in MYE paper 2. So..i guessed i've got alot better now. Im pretty sure i wouldn't pass with flying colours nor am i sure i would fail terribly too. Maybe somewhere in between? Lets hope.

English Papers wasn't so bad either. I hope i would be able to figure out all the correct transactions and get the adjustments thing right for POA tomorrow.

Hari Raya outing was like the previous year. The same old pretty boys & girls. Only this year's outing has alot of unwanted incidents. Some were hilarious too and some were embarrassing and some were what we prefer to refer it as 'things that made us hatch an idea' (Only Esty Ani and I knew about this) but definitely one to remember. The stupid conversations we had, the boys' usual mischief and the girls took turns to touch up on their make up. Everyone was being pretty. The truths behind that stupid P.R was revealed, which made me pissed off with that pair of bestfriends a little. Only that i didn't show it nor did i tell any person. Then again. I think Esty knew about this because i remembered having ranting to her about them. Oh, and did i mentioned? That each and every one of us has had a new hair do. Hurul and Rohani had their hair permed while Lia and Esty and Diana's rebond. The remaining girls merely just had a hair cut. We did alot of silly things. I did caused a commotion. Haha, and thousands of apologies to Hurul for we-know-what but everything is fine now, aren't they?

Some videos are already in facebook and Esty's Site.

I walked home with Esty and Fandi and was homed by 1AM.

Previous Sunday was well spent over at my cousins'. Like usual, we shared secrets and such. Only, with the help of my cousin, i got the chance to meet him after few long years. It never hit me that he would be so shy that it would kill him even to say hi to me. But, whatever. Since he would probably die of embarrassment if he were to face me, we only exchanged glances and never really talked. But still.

I wished i could share with someone who knew him too about what really happened, about what i was thinking at that point of time, about everything, even about how my heart was constantly beating fast. I wanted to, i just don't know who. *grunts* i really hate how she came into the picture. i wish she would just go away, out of her own will. Then maybe our world would be better. i wish we weren't even closed to her right from the start. I wish we are just an acquaintance to her. i wish she could read the invisible note inside my head that reads: "NO INTRUDERS ALLOWED!" i just wish she was a mind reader.

4th April 2009.