We're real friends, so no matter how long you take- if you decide to look back, i'll be here.
I knew it. I saw it coming. That was really expected. Yes, i failed math-yet again. I heard that i got an F, again. So that means to say, I'll be seeing yet another disappointing grade written on my report book, Q____Q That was honestly a let down because although i know my math result has been forever abysmal, i managed to pass a recent test -two actually- so deep down, i was still hoping at least i pulled up a grade. *sigh* But i know it very well that I'll only see my hopes came crashing down, so i buried it deep inside that it would prolly take an eon to be able to make it visible.
Well, September holidays are around the corner. Oooh, and trust me. Holidays aren't as sweet as you imagined it would be. It is rather going to be a dreadful one, just like school. With holiday assignment that's prolly would mount up by tomorrow, CCA course(s), upcoming tests to study for and MAJOR exams. WOAH! You barely have any time left for yourself. Well, that's normal. Its what people called -or at least me- the typical schooldays that a typical Singaporean teenager gets. Well, i made up my mind to finally stop procrastinate and start working my fingers and brain. Somebody was surprised with my sudden decision because the usual me doesn't get to work unless situation forced me to do so. *scoffs* I am surprised myself too.
Well anyhow, besides all that I'm getting a new hair-cut which less likely would not suit me as much as i wanted it to, i have been longing for a new hair since....well, since few days ago. Initially i was a bit reluctant. Oh wait. I do not even wish to have my long wavy hair being chopped off by a complete stranger. Honestly, a quarter of me wished i hadn't made this silly decision but another three quarter of me wanted to have a new hair anytime soon. I'm afraid if i were to embarrass myself in front of the public eye.
What if once i was being sitted in front of the mirror and suddenly, like a wally, scram off. Just like that because i don't want people to touch my well-nourished hair much less to chop it off. But then again, i am still going against that unsettling feeling of mine. Most likely, given how easily distracted i am, I'm probably going to be noticing something else too busy to even care about my unsettling feelings and before i knew it, its already... Goodbye old & waist-length & wavy hair AND Hello new & short & hopeful suits me kind of hair. *sigh* Somehow, that doesn't lift my spirits notch up.
How should i put this in words now that i could?
Well, sidetracking a little, i find it somehow highly annoying how some people doesn't seemed to be your friend, although they are. They have always been selfish, it seemed. They seemed to have already planned out your life for you and when you rebel against their plots, they will tend to tell you, "Oh [insert name here], you're 'out'. And you're not one of us now," Or probably they would belittle you, simply too ignorant and busy from acting like a bimbo. Their attitude would exasperate you and after some time you're probably too knackered to even defend yourself. Soon after you'll find yourself drifting away from them and sort of the mark of your cold wars and by them declaring war first is childish enough would make them regret losing you, instead of the other way round.
By mentioning the above in my blog, i am not referring to any particular person. So, please refrain yourself from thinking it is you i am talking about.
XOXO
Me.
Well, September holidays are around the corner. Oooh, and trust me. Holidays aren't as sweet as you imagined it would be. It is rather going to be a dreadful one, just like school. With holiday assignment that's prolly would mount up by tomorrow, CCA course(s), upcoming tests to study for and MAJOR exams. WOAH! You barely have any time left for yourself. Well, that's normal. Its what people called -or at least me- the typical schooldays that a typical Singaporean teenager gets. Well, i made up my mind to finally stop procrastinate and start working my fingers and brain. Somebody was surprised with my sudden decision because the usual me doesn't get to work unless situation forced me to do so. *scoffs* I am surprised myself too.
Well anyhow, besides all that I'm getting a new hair-cut which less likely would not suit me as much as i wanted it to, i have been longing for a new hair since....well, since few days ago. Initially i was a bit reluctant. Oh wait. I do not even wish to have my long wavy hair being chopped off by a complete stranger. Honestly, a quarter of me wished i hadn't made this silly decision but another three quarter of me wanted to have a new hair anytime soon. I'm afraid if i were to embarrass myself in front of the public eye.
What if once i was being sitted in front of the mirror and suddenly, like a wally, scram off. Just like that because i don't want people to touch my well-nourished hair much less to chop it off. But then again, i am still going against that unsettling feeling of mine. Most likely, given how easily distracted i am, I'm probably going to be noticing something else too busy to even care about my unsettling feelings and before i knew it, its already... Goodbye old & waist-length & wavy hair AND Hello new & short & hopeful suits me kind of hair. *sigh* Somehow, that doesn't lift my spirits notch up.
How should i put this in words now that i could?
Well, sidetracking a little, i find it somehow highly annoying how some people doesn't seemed to be your friend, although they are. They have always been selfish, it seemed. They seemed to have already planned out your life for you and when you rebel against their plots, they will tend to tell you, "Oh [insert name here], you're 'out'. And you're not one of us now," Or probably they would belittle you, simply too ignorant and busy from acting like a bimbo. Their attitude would exasperate you and after some time you're probably too knackered to even defend yourself. Soon after you'll find yourself drifting away from them and sort of the mark of your cold wars and by them declaring war first is childish enough would make them regret losing you, instead of the other way round.
By mentioning the above in my blog, i am not referring to any particular person. So, please refrain yourself from thinking it is you i am talking about.
XOXO
Me.
posted by Erdina. @ 10:43 PM
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