You never know how horrible, lacking, deprived, my life is.

Oh Hi Love.

I hate it everytime blogger decides to get on my nerves. Tsk. Initially, i already had a plan in mind : TO UPLOAD PHOTOS FROM NDP PREVIEW ON THE 25TH but since i had to reboot my computer all over again, everything was just unlike before. i can't upload any photos or video or change colours or fonts or even centralised everything. I swear that was totally highly annoying. Oh well anyway, i guess you just have to wait till the next post. There's almost 300 photos so it'll definitely no doubt, take time.

Nevertheless, the show was beyond words. It was memorable especially with all those good-looking crowd cheering and got their spirits up. Everyone sang the national anthem and recite the pledge out loud and clear. And proud, for that matter. The night-view was breathtaking. It was magnificient. The performance(s) was well-planned and organised. Half-way throughout the whole show, they made a live so called drama about wars and stuffs but i didn't know it cause i was too busy capturing the view from above. So all i could hear was the sound of machine whirring and beeping. Everything was in place and i felt as though that night was on the birthday itself. In other words, everyone played their part to the soothing and lively atmosphere. The goodies seems fine too. When i was ushered to my seat(Oh, i was allocated in the blue sector, by the way) I was wondering and was flabbergasted as to why did all those aunties and uncles bought HSM3 magazine. Most were probably just reading it or browsing through or fanning themselves cause of the unwanted weather. But then again, i found myself holding onto the magazine itself when i was looking through all those free stuffs. For a while, the thought where they were trying to promote HSM3 occured to me. But then again, i did not dwell or fret on it so much 'cause im not a big fan myself. Only a fan, not big. So no biggie. Oh, and before i forget. This year's theme song is called, "What do you see?" It was written by Dick lee(whoever he is) and sung originally by Electrico. I once did stumbled upon the video but all i could think of was "Oh, crap."

Oh, and did i mention i was with my sister? Yeah, i was. As weird as it sounds, that was actually the first ever time i went out with her if i were to exclude all the times with family. Well, also excluding the times where we went to westmall together. Back to the main part. The show ended at around early night. Well that was quite a disappointment cause i was hoping it would end at somewhere around 11PM. [chuckles], anyway. We spend a good 15 minutes just trying to escape our way out. First, we were left with no choice but to wait patiently for (most) people to walk down since we were seated at the last few rows. And another few minutes closed to half hour too, to make our way safely to Marina Square. Although there were a huge crowd practically just thought of nothing but themselves, i got to admit. My sympathized honestly went to the army boys because i overheard Otheir conversations that they were trying to inform people to avoid moving their feets towards the Esplanade but too sad for them, nobody even bothered to listen. I heard their officer went like, "YOU GOT TO SHOUT AT THEM NO MATTER WHAT." Well, that was sad. For Them.

Well anyway, upon reaching the Marina, i was a bit lost. My sister was too. My both feet was glued to the ground, simply refused to move. Probably were too amazed by the number of people putting their butts down the stairs. Despite that, I was frantically trying to find someone i know N(i don't know why either!)but i was blinded by the colour of the dark sky. Every faces seems to be darkened and a bit of a mystery. I barely could recognised their faces. There were just too many youngsters staring at everyone who chose to walk past them. From far view, i could only hear girls giggling to probably a joke made by their boyfriend that wasn't really funny. Youngsters chattering among their own crowd, and i saw a teenage girl whimpering cause she fell onto the grass. Some were scary, some were quirky. Some looked friendly, some looked as though they were planning an evil plot against anyone. Some guys shot us that blank look, whereas some guys were literally watching our every step. Oh, and i recalled a weird encounter with these 2 guys. Hhaah, funny plus random conversation we had. I'd mentioned it was weird cause we have never seen each other before, never knew one another but a conversation could easily strucked.

Our only intention entering the mall was for the washroom. But since the queue was just long and there shall be no cuts, we'd decided to go out back again. We had our (late) dinner at macDonalds. That was fattening. Oh, well. Was homed by nearly 12AM. I was too exhausted by then that upon reaching home H, i did not thought of nothing else but to go straight to bed.

"Just when i thought everything's going to be fine, bad news began to rise. As i crawled out of bed and when all the lights shines on me, those inner thoughts began to rise up to surface only reminding me how horrible, lacking, deprived my life is. I have always been so envious of everyone because they have what i don't. I have always wanted one, needed one so bad but never got it. Yes, im a little bit bruised on the inside and somehow only am capable of showing the happy side on the outside. But im still here, aren't I? Plus that was sad, wasn't it?"

xoxo,
ME Y.