Its upsetting. Its sad. Its depressing. Its frustrating. CrestFallen.
Its similar to a situation whereby you're stuck in a rut, but you're actually not.
You wanted so much to get out of the stinging sensation, but you don't know how to.
You have the desire to express your feelings/thoughts out in words, but you're still struggling.
Nobody understands you, nobody takes you seriously, nobody spare a thought for your feelings, nobody hears your say.
You never be gone with wind, you never lead.
Instead, you let it take you to where it wants to go but there's so much more you've never seen before.
You have been the one who have always watched from a distance as others made life for you.
And you wanted to know, how that would feel, to make and have a life of your own.
And that is my feelings for the moment. n___n