You are more cooler than i thought you would be.

Hi. Now, Im still in the mood for WB. I have always loved how the show has been forever spontaneous. And you could get the inside scoop of almost everything, thats pretty cool. Plus, it has always been very entertaining, well, at least it helps a lot to perk up your mood or something. You're probably not a human if you do not think the show's humorous because as far as im concerned. It has around 100,000 viewers each week. And everyone's probably going to sigh heavily after the last episode which is next week.

Well anyway, i am still having that horrified feeling again every time my mind drifted back to yesterday. I don't know why, but i can't seem to erase yesterday. I know what im saying may be a little fuzzy, but i don't care. I don't want to talk about it.

But anyway, with everyone's eye locked onto us made my 'acting' yesterday sort of bad. Hahah, of course i mean since young i cannot stand performing in front of a crowd. I have always been that shy little kiddo. My voice faltered as i began. And to top it off, i could not even remember what i was supposed to do/say.

Fasting month has been great so far. We're left with only 11 days to HR, which is a good thing. I got to loose at least few KGs of unwanted fats. I wonder why there is such things as eating disorder. Why are some people making themselves looked ugly, bony, most likely emaciated. Well instead of starving myself like they did, i think im going to start my exercise routine, which i doubt so i will, as they're a boon for your body.

Speaking of which, given that im generally happy with almost everything, i thought of the desired things on my list. I have always wished i was born rich. Well, everyone wishes for that too-at least once in their life. I want to spent my later life traveling the globe. I want to go Paris. I want to go Seoul. I want to be out of Singapore. My cousins and i used to picture ourselves living together somewhere out of Singapore. And we would have the biggest house, preferably a white bungalow because it looks more royal. And we would used to picture ourselves returning home with our hands packed with paper bags and we would have our meals in a posh restaurant and have the most luxurious car ever. We would be the envies of most, because of leading an idyllic life.

We have always loved imagining things. Predicting our future. But it is kind of vague now that i thought of it.
And then as we're getting older, i realized how young and imaginative our minds are back then to be able to picture everything.

Hello, I'm 2PM's JaeBum.
I'm sorry for giving you my last greeting through this letter.
I think it will be hard for me to see you all on stage because of my sorry heart.
I'm really sorry to everyone, and I'm even more sorry to the fans who have shown me love.
From today, I will leave 2PM.
2PM boys, I'm really sorry to the boys and I'm sorry I couldn't be strong as a leader and a hyung and have to leave like this.
However, I hope you will be more cool and charming.
Again, I'm sorry.
JaeBum

credit: HOTTEST fancafe

I felt my heart sank the moment i knew about it. They just celebrated their one year anniversary together a few days back.On the official 2PM fancafe, Jaebum announced that he will be officially quitting 2PM. JYP has just confirmed that this is true. This decision was made after his recent Myspace controversy was blown out of hand. All the ridiculous comments which were made 4 years ago by Jay himself when he was still a child were brought up again by them and turned it into big news. Jaebum will be leaving Korea today at 6:30pm. *sobs*

Here’s two comments made years ago by Jaebum that have just surfaced.
“I don’t know what to do… I’m so torn with that.. I feel like I don’t fit in…”
“I really ain’t like these other dudes… and I feel like I just don’t belong here…”

“Or I could come back.. Get my GED and go to Shoreline CC.. and I would be pretty happy…
surrounded by friends and people who care for me… (this reflects that in Korea, he doesn’t have
any friends or people that care for him) but I wouldn’t be able to make as much money…So I
would be able to buy my mother nice things… and help with debts and stuff… my mom said
to just come back… or do whatever makes me happy.. I don’t know what to do…”

Why make a big deal out of it? But then again, some says Jay just needs time to cool it off. He is in need of breaks to take his mind off everything.

Despite that, the Hottest president has called up on everybody to prevent Jay from leaving the airport. Every member of Hottest are doing a heartfelt video message to Jay. My tears fell down as i watched each and every of them. Well, atleast for now, he will be back in the US and stay with his family. Really, netizens should keep their comments to themselves.

XOXO

me.