i guess its the end of the road.

HELLO pretty little friends.

i don't know why these days i love to say HI.

i keep saying hi to everyone.

anyway, im really tired of people assuming that i like this particular someone.

i mean, people kept asking me whether i like him.

its so freaking irritating.

and now i know how exactly she feels when we're doing this to her.

why can't people mind their own business and shut their damn freaking mouth about me.

whether i like him or not, nobody will know.

yes, i shall not tell people anything.

its freaking irritating to hear what people have to say about us.

so say whatever you want. im not going to care. not anymore.

think whatever you want to, i still not gonna care.

I SWEAR I WILL IGNORE THAT PERSON SAYING.

like it or not, i will never tell you the truth.

you can assume whatever you want, if you want to keep on having the same thinking forever then go ahead.

'cause i know one day, you'll grew tired of it and eventually will stop.

so anyway, just now oral was fun, i think. cause its not like im sitting for the real one, it is like im having a conversation about silly things with my friend.

i thought there's going to be a picture discussion but there weren't. haha, i felt relieve.

i hate pictures cause i know i'll be stuck somewhere and will be waiting for the examiner to ask me questions.

anyway, so i really think that the passage is irritating cause there's alot of "PEMBELAJARAN" and i keep mispronounce it. and its really damn irritating.

before anything, when Afiq was gone and it was my turn i did not move but i stared at the examiner and she stared at me too. then after a while she said

"ai, datang sini pon nak kene jemput?"

i laughed at her cause i thought the examiners should called our name or something.

k, whatever. skip that part.

so before i sat, i greet the examiner and i asked her whether i can take a seat and she said this,

"yelar, tak kan awak nak baring kan?"

then again i laughed. she is so good ah. i think i have started to like her already which is good since she's my malay teacher.

so after reading we have this conversation about CCA. and i told her my CCA is NPCC and she was expecting me to continue but i stopped there cause i don't know what to say.

then she asked questions which i completely do not understand until she translate it all into english.

but still i don't really understand cause i didn't really answered her questions.

i was like

Me: "huh, i really don't know what you're talking about eh."

She: "if this is your O'level, thats it."

Me: "but i really don't understand you"

So she explain the question word by word.

Me: "i really don't know what to say, eh"

She: "this is already english. and if you can't understand malay, don't understand english then how?"

Me: "kay. kay, last time. please, will you explain everythig sl..ow..ly."

so then after a while, she gave me a simpler set of questions but i end up talking to her about other things. its really fun. and after that she said i can go home. but of course i did answer her question but really its only three points. but i think she like our conversation. i think so.

hah, so after that about 5PM went to canteen and met up with Vinia, Sabreena, Nabihah, Diana and Rohani. i thought i was the only one with conversation like that but Diana also. ^.^

anyway, after that went outside school to meet terenjit and gang.

and you know, Firdaus was damn cute. All four(terenjit, adha, darren, firdaus) hide themselves under a bbq pit each. and firdaus is really really cute cause he really curled up his body and he kind of forced himself to squeeze under it. it was cute. they were cute.

haah, so after that talked for awhile and headed home.

im excited to go to school tomorrow. cause i want to see the results. but im afraid if im not choosen i will surely cry on the spot. so lets hope, we'll be going. pray for me/us ^.^

xx,

Erdina.